Yep. I have been having all the fun that comes with a job search.
[insert: nausea, self-doubt, double the daily stress and some occasional diarrhea]
I’ve kept very busy these last three weeks; I had three job interviews so I spent most of my evenings learning about the companies I was interviewing with, prepping for (and practicing) the interview questions, and coming up with a bunch of reasons why I needed to ‘step out’ from my desk at 3:15pm. I think I used all the excuses by now –
- gotta go to the dentist as one of my fillings fell out
- I have that weird mole and it’s itching and I really have to have it checked out
- just stepping out to get a quick lunch! (and disappearing for 2 hours)
- my friend has an emergency and I am her only contact in town, gotta run and help her
Anyhow, it took so much out of me, it literally sucked out all of my energy to deal with the process. Not fun.
And what’s even less fun? Not getting any of those three jobs.
I am bracing myself as I am going to take a couple of weeks to recover and do it all over again in mid April!
Besides stressing myself out and driving my hubby boy crazy, all of that made me drop a ball on keeping it frugal. Namely, there were take-outs (too busy and tired too cook), there were coffees out (not sure why) and I also purchased a purse and a pair of pants that I did not need. Both for the interviews of course. At least they were from Crossroads so did not destroy my wallet, but still. I actually ended up returning the purse for store credit so was able to salvage some of the damage and at least I will buy something I need rather than a purse.
I guess some days or weeks are better than other. Some weeks I stay focused, frugal and I plan ahead, some weeks I just try to stay sane and take it day by day. I am sure you can relate.
Seems like I am complaining too much today, right? 😉 I am actually going somewhere with this…
While job search is a very stressful process (see the second sentence in this post), and I am letting it get too me maybe a bit too much sometimes, I am also reminding myself every step of the way, how blessed I am TO BE ABLE TO look for work. Before I received my green card, for almost 13 years I was on a work visa where I did not have ANY flexibility to just ‘get out there’ and get a job I wanted. I had a work visa for one specific position at one specific company. And if I lost it for whatever reason – game over.
I have the freedom now. I have the freedom to try to get any job I want, to interview, I have the freedom to be picky, I have a freedom I dreamt about for a very long time. I feel very lucky.